Your experiences can change your attitude for the better or worse. There were days where I just had a very, very rotten time, and still tried to spread magic. Imagine getting a reprimand because you had no choice but to call in sick because of your roommates messing around with the thermostat every 30 minutes. I had to call in sick a few times because of that, and ended up getting a bloody reprimand! Twice! I tried to explain to the managers that 1) I was actually sick. I wasn't trying to play hooky, like some kids used to do at school; why would I? I needed the money to pay rent, so it would actually hurt me to lose that money, 2) I was in no shape to even get on a bus. I almost passed out once on the bus while I was sick (I got sick on the bus; I felt "fine" before getting on,) and next thing I knew, I was at the nearest clinic. To this day, I don't remember how I got there. And finally 3) I tried to explain that I was also looking out for the well-being of my fellow Cast Members. It wouldn't at all have been fair for me to go into work while sick, and put my fellow Cast Members AND the Guests at risk of picking up whatever I had. Plus, since I had already transferred to ODF at that time, going in while sick would've posed another health risk; you do NOT touch food while you are ill. That is just asking for trouble, and the Health Department would be all over my managers if they wanted me to work while sick. So in light of all that, I was depressed for awhile. I felt that I was getting punished for looking out for people's safety, as well as my own. It felt as if they were trying to send the message that doing the right thing isn't doing the right thing.
But, in spite of all that, I still felt like I finally belonged somewhere. I finally fit in at long last. I was usually the kid who got bullied at school, for a variety of reasons. Try being the only Italian kid with a German-like appearance at a predominately Hispanic school, or having an IQ of 120. How my peers found out about that is something else I have yet to ascertain. But getting back on topic. For the first time in my life, I finally found a place where people are accepting of you. I had *some* bad experiences, but the good far outweighed the bad. So nothing changed for the worse. In fact, I'm trying to go back down for another Program, and possibly see if I can go FT.