i'm going to make the 15,000 post okay here we go!
So, Kay is off with her dad for the night...yaya...some freedom!! Course, I miss her already but it will give me a chance to relax and clean up her room and my room...again. ugh. never ending.
then of course yesterday had an arguement with my mom, and she still isnt speaking to me. was about kayla and how she was acting at the time and how she doesnt listen, isnt responsible, eats too much junk, all sorts of fun stuff, which of course is all my problem even though my mom didnt say that. but she told me i should grow up and act like her mom...which i responded with, well if i was allowed to be her mom instead of you guys overtalking me and outsteppin my rules...just cause i live with my parents shouldnt mean i am not allowed to take care of my child how i want to. then i tried to get out of the house and on our way to ballet early and my mom said i was runnin away from the problem. i told her, no i am gettin away from gettin a headache since she was bringing up a whole bunch of other stuff too...like how messy the house is and how kay should act like a 5 1./2 year old not a baby...told my mom well if people stopped treatin her like a baby she wouldnt act like it...and how the house has been the same for years now..and every time i clean up or try to clean up it doesnt stay or people dont let me. so i give up a lot and only do certain rooms and areas.
im so tired of people, not just my parents, but a lot of people treatin me like a kid and not a 32 year old adult with a kid of my own. i try to do the right thing and what needs to be done and still to no avail sometimes. sooo frustrating. always being told what to do, when to do it, and how to take care of my kid. while i appreciate being able to stay with my parents during this rough time in my life and while i try to rebuild my life, its also very hard and demeaning sometimes. i cant wait until the day i can move me and kay out on our own. just such different opinions and lifestyles its soo hard to deal sometimes. also explains why i try to get out of the house whenever we can.
sorry to vent, thanks for listening.
"A dream is a wish your heart makes..."
Me (Jamie) - 34 DD (Kayla) - 7
TRIP REPORT AUGUST 2011 http://www.wdwradio.com/forums/showt...l=1#post972048